I woke up at 6:15, exercized. showered. ate breakfast. ran to the store. went to work.
I'm tired now, but I plan on going to the Y today (maybe after a nap?) to do some cardio.
I think i like this routine. We'll see just how cranky i am at 4p though. :)
oh p.s. 173 lbs this morning!!!
Monday, June 29, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Sad Day...
Today is a sad day.
Yesterday my boyfriend got "miffed" at me (as he put it) because I spent a little over $100 on clothes. His stance is completely understandable. I DO have a ton of clothes. However, i explained to him that a) it was an extremely good sale. (It was! I got a whole big box of clothes for under $120!) b) since i gained weight i don't have a lot of clothes that fit me.. and since it's summer it's really uncomfortable to wear clothes that don't fit. and c) i can use them for student teaching. I also explained that about 80% of the clothes that I have are clothes that don't fit me anymore but i can't really let go of.
So today when i woke up I decided to clean out my closet. I have two full bins of clothes to donate. I have a big pile of more professional clothes to give to a friend. Those were the hardest to realize that I'm not going to fit into. They were Gap size 4 pants. If they were 6's I might hang on to them. But it's going to take a VERY long time to get back into a 4. And she's currently in the process of applying for more professional jobs. So might as well have them. :(
There were a few things that I hung on to. A few skirts. It'd be really nice to fit back into them.
All in all it was kind of relieving to go through everything.
The fact (haha i almost wrote 'fat') of the matter is.... i have some really nice clothes. I like looking nice and getting dressed up. I don't need to spend money on a bunch of new clothes because I have a ton of "Like New" clothes hanging up in my very own closet.
I just need to get out there and do more. I need to get out there and work out for the sake of working out. GO TO THE GYM EVERY DAY AGAIN. Care about what I'm eating (which I've been doing.)
It was a sad day. But i'm done denying. I'm done lying to myself. I'm done pretending. I'm ready to transform. I'm ready to be me again.
Today I weigh 175 again. Earlier this week I was excited to weigh 173 and feel a little tighter.
This is the day I take myself seriously.
Yesterday my boyfriend got "miffed" at me (as he put it) because I spent a little over $100 on clothes. His stance is completely understandable. I DO have a ton of clothes. However, i explained to him that a) it was an extremely good sale. (It was! I got a whole big box of clothes for under $120!) b) since i gained weight i don't have a lot of clothes that fit me.. and since it's summer it's really uncomfortable to wear clothes that don't fit. and c) i can use them for student teaching. I also explained that about 80% of the clothes that I have are clothes that don't fit me anymore but i can't really let go of.
So today when i woke up I decided to clean out my closet. I have two full bins of clothes to donate. I have a big pile of more professional clothes to give to a friend. Those were the hardest to realize that I'm not going to fit into. They were Gap size 4 pants. If they were 6's I might hang on to them. But it's going to take a VERY long time to get back into a 4. And she's currently in the process of applying for more professional jobs. So might as well have them. :(
There were a few things that I hung on to. A few skirts. It'd be really nice to fit back into them.
All in all it was kind of relieving to go through everything.
The fact (haha i almost wrote 'fat') of the matter is.... i have some really nice clothes. I like looking nice and getting dressed up. I don't need to spend money on a bunch of new clothes because I have a ton of "Like New" clothes hanging up in my very own closet.
I just need to get out there and do more. I need to get out there and work out for the sake of working out. GO TO THE GYM EVERY DAY AGAIN. Care about what I'm eating (which I've been doing.)
It was a sad day. But i'm done denying. I'm done lying to myself. I'm done pretending. I'm ready to transform. I'm ready to be me again.
Today I weigh 175 again. Earlier this week I was excited to weigh 173 and feel a little tighter.
This is the day I take myself seriously.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
day two
and i'm feeling really good. I already feel energized and happy. I mean, the point/eating thing is really hard. Especially when you invite people over and your boyfriend makes not only a delicious meal, but also a delicious and tempting chocolate cake! (i denied the cake after stealing just a few licks of the frosting) Or when you have a friend surprise you at work with a chocolate doughnut. But it's working out. I'm definitely more aware of what i'm eating. I'm definitely aware of how much i'm allowing into my body.
The best part is that I'm having a great time at the gym. Even if i only go for 30 minutes... i feel SO good afterward! SO GOOD! It is the best part of my day. And I haven't come home upset/frustrated/fiesty like i had been doing since my summer hours started... Which is not only fantastic for me, but also those who surround themselves with me.
I have a gym buddy but it's less about working out together and more about giving each other the motivation to go, point blank. Tomorrow, she can't go. Thursday I can't go. and Friday she's leaving for vacation. I think she'll be back on tuesday... but i'll just have to find the motivation in myself. It's open until 9. I can do it :)
I just have to remember to weigh myself in the morning!
The best part is that I'm having a great time at the gym. Even if i only go for 30 minutes... i feel SO good afterward! SO GOOD! It is the best part of my day. And I haven't come home upset/frustrated/fiesty like i had been doing since my summer hours started... Which is not only fantastic for me, but also those who surround themselves with me.
I have a gym buddy but it's less about working out together and more about giving each other the motivation to go, point blank. Tomorrow, she can't go. Thursday I can't go. and Friday she's leaving for vacation. I think she'll be back on tuesday... but i'll just have to find the motivation in myself. It's open until 9. I can do it :)
I just have to remember to weigh myself in the morning!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Point.
So the point thing is "working." Clearly i haven't actually seen any results. Especially because today is the day that i'm starting to take it seriously. I mean, originally I just kind of jumped into it, not knowing what counted towards what or any of the rules, really. And I just couldn't stop thinking about double cheese burgers.
But now I realize that finding out how much something is "worth" is actually really pretty simple provided you have internet access. And I feel very satisfied. So yay. Now all I have to remember to do is weigh myself tomorrow morning since I forgot to today.
But now I realize that finding out how much something is "worth" is actually really pretty simple provided you have internet access. And I feel very satisfied. So yay. Now all I have to remember to do is weigh myself tomorrow morning since I forgot to today.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Weight Watchers
I'm not going to go to meetings but I am going to try their points system starting tomorrow for breakfast :) They actually have some good looking recipes that i'm anxious to try. I should figure out what i'm having for breakfast tomorrow, tonight.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Well... I don't know if i just had too high of expectations for my first week after graduation or if i'm just being too lazy. I think it might be a little bit of both. I have walked to work, I have walked after dinner/before bed. I have not actually exercized yet. I have, however, gotten (or rather, will get later today) Jenny Craig literature on the "point system" which i think might be helpful.
I just need to get my butt into the gym. Am i embarassed? I know I've just been ridiculously tired these past few days... But, after the spare room is cleared out and everything is put away tonight... Debbie is starting! I will see and feel a difference before going on vacation.
I just need to get my butt into the gym. Am i embarassed? I know I've just been ridiculously tired these past few days... But, after the spare room is cleared out and everything is put away tonight... Debbie is starting! I will see and feel a difference before going on vacation.
Monday, June 15, 2009
New week:
Weight: 175
Monday: Walked to work
This weekend was kind of a bust, kind of not? I has some much overdue fun. Slept in on Sunday. Forced myself to walk this morning. Now i'm good. Motivated. Hungry for health!
Monday: Walked to work
This weekend was kind of a bust, kind of not? I has some much overdue fun. Slept in on Sunday. Forced myself to walk this morning. Now i'm good. Motivated. Hungry for health!
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
post graduation
Okay. Graduation is over...
This week's agenda:
Get a better eating schedule/habits
Clean my house
Put my new couch together
Go for a walk every night after dinner.
ride bike/walk/rollerblade to work at least once this week (depending on weather)
Next week's agenda:
Go to the Y at least twice that week
ride bike/walk/rollerblade to work at least three times (depending on the weather)
Continue with the eating right and regularly.
Two weeks out:
Start re-training for the 5k.
Start 100 pushup challenge.
This week's agenda:
Get a better eating schedule/habits
Clean my house
Put my new couch together
Go for a walk every night after dinner.
ride bike/walk/rollerblade to work at least once this week (depending on weather)
Next week's agenda:
Go to the Y at least twice that week
ride bike/walk/rollerblade to work at least three times (depending on the weather)
Continue with the eating right and regularly.
Two weeks out:
Start re-training for the 5k.
Start 100 pushup challenge.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Food Journal:
June 2, 2009:
Breakfast: Yogurt with granola, flaxseed, and a few chocolate chips.
Lunch: two waffles with syrup
Dinner: Fries, Grilled Cheese and Cucumbers
June 3, 2009:
Breakfast/Lunch: Breakfast Bagel and 3 Mozz Sticks.
Dinner: Portobella Sandwich, Spinach Bisque
Dessert: Half a portion (shared) of tiramisu
June 4, 2009:
Breakfast: Yogurt, flaxseed, granola, banana
Breakfast: Yogurt with granola, flaxseed, and a few chocolate chips.
Lunch: two waffles with syrup
Dinner: Fries, Grilled Cheese and Cucumbers
June 3, 2009:
Breakfast/Lunch: Breakfast Bagel and 3 Mozz Sticks.
Dinner: Portobella Sandwich, Spinach Bisque
Dessert: Half a portion (shared) of tiramisu
June 4, 2009:
Breakfast: Yogurt, flaxseed, granola, banana
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Now that the school year is over...
I have more time to focus on my goals.
First one being: KEEP UP WITH THE BLOG BETTER! I know that by keeping up with the blog on a daily or bi-daily basis I'll be able to remind myself of how i'm going about obtaining my goal.
2. Not get bogged down by working. This summer I will be working full time at a not-so-exciting job. I will have nearly no access to sunlight, will be in front of a computer/phone for 7-8 hours a day. This is exhausting work, even though i'm not doing anything. Or rather than exhausting it's just not mentally stimulating. I know myself... I know that when I get home all i'm going to want to do is lay in bed with the boyfriend and the cats, eat dinner and then maybe watch a movie. BUT THIS CANNOT BE MY LIFE!! NO NO NO!
3. ACTUALLY GO TO THE Y! I've been paying for two months now... and I haven't gone once. Part of that was because I got vertigo again... and working out with vertigo isn't safe. But being busy isn't an excuse and being lazy is an even lamer excuse than being busy! So i'm going! I'm going to make a schedule and i'm going to stick with it! And I'm going to DO something about my problem!
4. Try this: http://hundredpushups.com/index.html . If it works out I'll take the pull-ups and the sqwats too. If it doesn't work out... It doesn't work out, whatever.. I have other options. This might even be a fun challenge to do with my boyfriend.
5. Speaking of boyfriend..... WE NEED TO STOP EATING OUT ALL OF THE TIME! Which means I need to start cooking more. And learn how to cook things other than pasta!
6. Eat more balanced meals.
7. Not eat/drink so many empty calories. I'm not real interested in getting drunk every weekend anyway.... But if i do drink... just make it worth something.
I think those are all of my goals right now. But if you do read... It might be a long, bitching summer! I'm at 170. I keep getting bigger! I have a lot of work to do!
First one being: KEEP UP WITH THE BLOG BETTER! I know that by keeping up with the blog on a daily or bi-daily basis I'll be able to remind myself of how i'm going about obtaining my goal.
2. Not get bogged down by working. This summer I will be working full time at a not-so-exciting job. I will have nearly no access to sunlight, will be in front of a computer/phone for 7-8 hours a day. This is exhausting work, even though i'm not doing anything. Or rather than exhausting it's just not mentally stimulating. I know myself... I know that when I get home all i'm going to want to do is lay in bed with the boyfriend and the cats, eat dinner and then maybe watch a movie. BUT THIS CANNOT BE MY LIFE!! NO NO NO!
3. ACTUALLY GO TO THE Y! I've been paying for two months now... and I haven't gone once. Part of that was because I got vertigo again... and working out with vertigo isn't safe. But being busy isn't an excuse and being lazy is an even lamer excuse than being busy! So i'm going! I'm going to make a schedule and i'm going to stick with it! And I'm going to DO something about my problem!
4. Try this: http://hundredpushups.com/index.html . If it works out I'll take the pull-ups and the sqwats too. If it doesn't work out... It doesn't work out, whatever.. I have other options. This might even be a fun challenge to do with my boyfriend.
5. Speaking of boyfriend..... WE NEED TO STOP EATING OUT ALL OF THE TIME! Which means I need to start cooking more. And learn how to cook things other than pasta!
6. Eat more balanced meals.
7. Not eat/drink so many empty calories. I'm not real interested in getting drunk every weekend anyway.... But if i do drink... just make it worth something.
I think those are all of my goals right now. But if you do read... It might be a long, bitching summer! I'm at 170. I keep getting bigger! I have a lot of work to do!
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